ok, i'm on a once a week thing on this thing, i can barely commit to classes let alone a blog, i haven't gone to classes for about 3 weeks now. i have no motivation, life just sucks. i have no drive, no ambition. i'm getting poor, my mom's going to cut me off even though i helped her out in the past, i blame the new hubby. i need a job, but no one wants to hire me anymore. i need a new location, but, where? i'm frustrated with me life, i haven't slept yet today and i can't sleep after the fun phone call with my mom. i'm actually rather manic right about now. if you really think about it, life is pointless, you go through school, which is miserable to those who have a brain, then you go to college, which is even more miserable because you are surrounded by people whose idea of college is getting hammered every night, then you graduate to find yourself immersed in a debt with a dead end job that your major never really covered (i.e. manager at a department store) you get married, have kids, then die. what kind of life is that? not for me, fuck that.
fuck you dad, for killing yourself
fuck you mom, for marrying an ass
fuck you jeff, for moving to san diego and ditching your family
fuck you society for never really giving me a chance
and best of all
fuck me, because i made a lot of bad choices and now i'm paying for them, i'm an idiot