aww, it feels good to take a break, i went up to mitchell for the weekend, hung out at my friends' tattoo shop. i managed to find a kitty in the alley and gave it a home, drew up a design for a tattoo that is now permanetely on someone...it's a good feeling, and i also enjoyed homemade eggrolls. Sunday i headed back to yankton, but stopped in a small town to visit a grave.
i did, and i decided to have a "talk" with my deceased father. i told him what i truly felt, that suicide is truly a chickenshit's way out, i told him that he abandoned us, even before we abandoned us, i told him, he sucked as a father, he really did. but i told him there were many great memories i'll keep with me forever. because years back, he did try, in recent years, he gave up. he was really good at that.
tonight, we go to pick out a headstone for him. it's weird. after that conversation, it feels like a great weight taken off my chest. i don't feel like a new man, but i feel something positive. there's still a gap in me from not having a father that cared, i know that someday it will be patched up.
school's still school. i think i like it more now. after switching majors, i feel, well better accepted, as a computer science major, i now have a comradery among fellow geeks, i dig it. i do not care if someone does label me a "geek." sure, i do like things such as video games, cowboy bebop, films, music, etc. i like a lot of stuff, and i think it's all good stuff, and that's all that matters.
but, simpsons is on, i have got to head out, but once again...i leave you some recommendations

music - Mike Ness - Under the Influence - social distortion front man's solo album, he used this album, i guess, as a sort of homage to his influences, mostly honky tonk, still cool shit. tracks to check out - funnel of love and the honky tonk version of Ball and Chain- it truly rocks

movies - haven't watched any new movies in a bit, i still have a lineup of shit i need to watch, and i'm working on it BUT, i will recommend something different...

Spoken Word - Henry Rollins - think tank & get in the van - great stuff, think tank is mostly rants and raves but funny as hell, get in the van is his life with black flag, both are worth a listen

but i've already missed 7 minutes of simpsons

so bye