lately i've been feeling more and more disconnected from the human race, now it seems that i do nothing but work, especially that i switched to nights for an extra dollar an hour. life's just weird to me these days...i spend most of my time off of work...in my room, watching my latest addiction and smoking...i'm just afraid of life getting TOO repetitive, tonight wasn't so bad, hung out with the bro, had good times, met people...
it seems that at least once a year i get a weird notion that friends aren't friends anymore, but i guess that's just my whole abandonment issues thing...i've had an interesting life so far. i do plan on continuing, i'm still deciding what i can do with my life, but i'm taking my time on it...i like my job
(pause for drama...pause for drama....pause for drama)
i actually do
i get paid WELL
to make steel dies for aluminum extrusion...i'm actually getting dirty, none of this sit on a phone or sell shit bullshit...it's real work
i like it
i'm still adjusting to nights, but i like it too, which means i can be awake to listen to Coast to Coast AM, the best radio program...EVER.
the only thing i really need in my life right now...(well don't need, want) is maybe a female companion...that would be awesome, but it seems that everytime i mention this to an unsingle man...i always get the same response...don't.
i guess i don't like being tied down...a woman would tend to do that...
i need to get out and see the fucking world
i'm only 23 years old...i got a lot of life left...i hope
i need to drink a guinness in Ireland
i need to watch a soccer game in scotland...and live
i need to get lost in Tokyo
i need to drink Fosters in Australia
i need to get an old school (pre machine) tribal tattoo in Hawaii
i need to do a lot
so maybe a woman isn't such a great idea now
maybe
oh well
my morale is good and i'll keep fighting on
with love...