I've kept way too many thoughts and emotions to myself. I don't like it here. Back in Yankton. Miserable...yet bearable. Broke with no job does suck, but honestly, it's a welcomed break, something I've never really had the last few years. But I think this break is coming to an end. It's a good thing...I hope. I'm bored. I've become lazy. Shit sucks.
See...this is what happens when you postpone a creative feeling. You find yourself stumbling for words to throw on. Almost like they're...filler. I'm not the same man as the one who created this blog to do the hip thing, to express my feelings. This is what got me writing and from there, the only true solace I seem to have anymore. I think I've...grown. It's scary...but good. I think I almost see life in a different light.

Dreams...Do i still have them? I don't know anymore. I don't know what my goals are anymore. I don't know what i want to be when i grow up...still. 7 majors and nothing. Is this my true generation? The generation of those who don't want to have the same timeline as other generations? We don't care about that I guess...I guess we just want to live for now, live for whatever keeps us sane? Because being happy is such a rare thing. Like really happy. Not like that whole grin and nod. Am I too serious? But regardless. I don't care. I don't like the idea of working anymore because everyone around here is a moron. This is the problem of being too educated for certain jobs. If i do get a job, I just get frustrated and I feel trapped after seeing all my coworkers who have been there for 5+ years. I don't like being trapped.
I don't know what I want for my life. I just like taking it one day at a time.
Maybe I should finish school?
Maybe I should keep writing?
dunno.

We'll see what tomorrow brings.
So...sorry for a half assed post.
but to keep up with tradition.
Song of the moment - Ignite "Live for better days"
movie - Akira, forgot how much I loved this film"

but stay tuned in to see how I'm going to deal with being the big 26 and if I ever do...pick my life back up.