i honestly did, i got a job, stopped spending money...
became "responsible"
and what happened?
life did.
my bro's fiancee's grandmother died, it sucks...
and because she has to go back home (i don't blame her)
we can't afford rent...
hell, it's expensive living out here without a college degree...
working at a grocery store won't pay the bills and live in this high standard of living
so, jeff and i came to a decision...
it brings me to tears to say this...
but we're coming back home.
but you know what...
after being on the phone several times with my friend...
i know i at least have three friends waiting for me, hell i even have a gig on the 4th with a friend
i'll leave again,
i'll find a school
there's always hope
ALWAYS
i realized tonight that it's not always me who sabotages things...it just happens, honestly
it's not our time out here, someday it will be
love you all

ok, i need to start blogging more...
i'm pathetic
but we all know that...
ok, i love it out here, i'm happy
right now, i'm waiting for my new exciting job to start...NIGHT STOCKER, it pays...
but i'm bored out of my mind during the day, jeff works, nicole works...i have like nothing to do, even internet gaming has gotten boring, somewhat. but i guess that gives me a chance to read and watch movies. i'm still trying to find friends out here...so far i have two, and that's not bad ya know? I also have a girl who i write back and forth to...there's one problem...she's back home. I hope she comes out and visits...and decides she never wants to leave...i have hope.
the attitude out here is so much better, everyone's laid back, people are decent...except at fashion valley...your typical high class assholes, my rough looks do not cut it there.
oh well life goes on
music...don't have any right now
movies...i saw waiting and wedding crashers recently, and despite my hesitations...they were pretty good, laugh your ass off movies. so, if you're bored, and by yourself...check em out.