meds, my new meds...fucking great, they curb my appetite and make me sleep, lots, but considering i woke up last night at 9pm, i need to re adjust my circadian rhythms, well, what's happened since i last posted...hmm, my bro came home to take care of some business, we've been on speaking terms, fucking yay. i got new ink, a geisha girl, it's great. i saw bright eyes and spoon in omaha, great fucking show, except ya know that connor is on coke, haha, that little guy has too much energy. but none the less, i recommend the hell out of them if you don't listen to them now. i've switched to a better group of friends, one that come over to my apartment and say, yah, i have nothing to do, can i clean? (yeah, hard to believe, but true). my step dad has proven to be a bigger dick (if that was possible) he wouldn't even spend thanksgiving with his new family and now he's having my mom kick out my brother who is temp. staying there so his aunt can crash there a few days while she looks for a new job...translation...his pot smoking aunt is not going to find a job and is probably going to be there for more than a few days. but jeff goes back to san diego sometime in december. me...
i'm thinking of selling my bike and joining him, i see an oppurtunity, so i'll just have to take it. they have a decent school there and it's not south dakota
i'll get a real chance to start over and get away from the winter here, literally and metaphorically. it just seems this place is a winter tundra at all times, it's devoid of culture and everyone just drinks and fucks. i want to start a band (for fun) and fall in love while staring out into the ocean. i want to go to a real school, one that actually can get me somewhere. i want to do something because this life of nothing...is taking its toll on me.
ok, now to continue tradition...

movie - Jarhead - based on anthony swafford's best selling novel, it depicts a marine's experience in the first gulf war. very ironic in many ways but a chilling performance by jake gyllenhall (sp?) a must see.

music - jack's mannequin - everything in transit. the front man from something corporate released a hell of a side project that he wrote while on the west coast, it's incredible, it did not leave my car for about 3 weeks. buy it now.

that's it for now, stay tuned as your hero (me) prepares for a great journey.
love....