i did it, i realized that i was absolutely trapped, not going anywhere, dying inside every day from the monotony of having to pamper people, i was done. i hated my two jobs, i hated repeating the same thing day in and out, and i hated the idea of my mom supporting me. so i moved, to yankton.
yes, i moved back to the place i tried forgetting. i guess, sooner or later, we return home with out tails between our legs, and that's just what i did. i did come back to a family with arms open waiting for me, family is always good. i left with people pissed at me, guys, i'm sorry. i failed as a roommate but more importantly, i failed as a friend.
i got a new job right away at a telemarketing place, the pay was good, but having cokeheads for supervisors, wasn't. cokeheads sure are moody. so i'm starting a new job on monday, i think it'll be good. i've been thinking all night, about what i'm going to do, i've thought of the medical side of a career and i've thought about film. then it occurred to me, it sucks not having anyone to talk to (this is why i do this, i just need people to listen). i think i'm going back into psychology so i could help adolescents with their problems, and focus on drug and alcohol abuse, i've seen too much of it in my life, and it's pointless. so i think that's what i'm going to do.
i went and saw sin city tonight, it was amazing. that's all i'm going to say about that.

then i got a call from the mom tellling me she was at the theaters as well, i asked who she went with...
she had a date, a fucking date. my parents have been divorced for the last 5 years, and i don't know if i can deal with another "father" figure in my life. i have no idea what to think. last night i realized that my family was complete, and now this? i don't know. thoughts anyone??

well, i'll be posting a lot more, so...feel free to comment and let me know if you read this.