the moon tonight...words fail to describe it. i was suddenly reminded why i miss living on a farm. away from the sounds and lights of a city. instead, having the sounds of nothing...or an occasional coyote howling. summer is going to be awesome, we'll be able to sit outside, smoke, and stay warm. i realize how nostalgic i really am. i miss getting woken up to the sound or smell of breakfast being made or having to wake up at 5 in the fucking morning to milk cows with my father. i miss waking up in t middle of the night to go and take a piss outside (there is something poetic about pissing at night with no one around, it's hard to explain to anyone) all that now...is gone, i forgot most of the good memories of the farm and my father and replaced them with utter hate. but, i guess, life always has its ups and downs. i hate this reflecting shit, i guess i am "emo" but hey, at least i, unlike most emo kids, never had a relationship in highschool to write about...i just had awkwardness and heavy metal...haha.
well, i must go to bed, i get to watch a confidentiality training video at work tomorrow...i do get paid for it at least.
so, night everyone
trav